• Spiritual

    I Believe I Can Fly [Manifesting Change]

    “Be not afraid of life. Believe that life is worth living and your belief will help create the fact. –William James Many of us learned as children that rejection and abandonment are part and parcel of being alive. We are so used to feeling as though things won’t work out, that fear – like a shadow – is always lurking behind us… We need to be careful about creating what we look for. Regardless of the frightening experiences of the past, we need to believe that other results are possible: All loved ones don’t leave, all risks don’t end in devastation, and all efforts aren’t dashed on the rocks of…

  • Spiritual

    Enjoying the Good Days

    ‘A good day does not have to be the “calm before the storm.”  That’s an old way of thinking we learned in dysfunctional systems. In recovery, a good day or a good feeling doesn’t mean we’re in denial. We don’t have to wreck our good times by obsessively searching for or creating a problem.’ From: “The Language of Letting Go” I used I always think his way. If I was in a good mood I would literally ask myself, “What is wrong?” Today, I enjoy when I feel good and I don’t question it. I accept it, just like I accept when I have a bad day (but also I…

  • Spiritual

    Self Love?

    For some reason, the idea of learning to love and affirm myself is unappealing. It seems empty and un-fulfilling, but I think that may be due to a lack of understanding. As I have been struggling with this, I got this devotion a few days ago: “For most of us, addiction was full of doubt. We stopped believing in ourselves. Our thoughts had turned to “stinkin’ thinkin’. ” We didn’t believe in much of anything. We didn’t take risks. We always looked for the easier, softer way. In recovery, we start to believe again. We believe in the program. We believe in a Higher Power. We believe in people. And,…

  • Spiritual

    Seeing the Good

    “Seeing the good. The beauty of our souls shines in many ways. The greatest of these is love. In the spirit of loving kindness, every day a little ugliness is removed; our perspective on life grows broader and deeper. In the spirit of love, our lives become fresher, our souls humbler; evil seems to disappear, and we learn to distinguish sinner from the sin. Do I see the good in people?” From Hazeldon’s “Day by Day” I love that- every day a little ugliness is removed when I allow God to change my perspective. Not a lot has changed about the specific details on my life, or who I am…but…

  • Relationships,  Spiritual

    Love – Harmony from Chaos

    “Have we forgotten how to love in our hurried passage through life? Perhaps we need reminding that love focuses our attention and guides our direction. Our actions aren’t hurried and our feelings aren’t confused and unraveled when we’re loving others and ourselves. Love offers form and enhancement to each moment… When the day’s frantic activities crowd the heart’s silent places, we must slow our pace and take notice of the loved ones in our presence, there by intent, remembering with them the design that has captured us and given meaning to our lives. Love creates music from the disharmony of our haphazard life choices. Giving it away is like a…

  • Intentional Living,  Spiritual

    Waiting is an Action

    In my article “Grounding” I talked about my need to focus more on positive self-talk. No matter what I do, it can be fixed or made to fit. With almost everything I have painted, I reach a point where I hate it. I leave it on the easel for a few hours, and sometimes a few days. I never feel any pressure to fix it right away, I just wait for the answer to come, And it always does. I am learning to do this in other areas of my life. I don’t always like what my life looks like, and sometimes I do things that look totally messed up.…

  • Journal,  Spiritual

    Grounding

    Sometimes, it seems impossible for me to stay present. I’m reading my devotional in the morning, with no comprehension of what I read because my mind was thinking about something or someone else. Sometimes I am driving, and I become disoriented and forget where I am and how I got there. It feels like lost time. It happens when I am in conversations sometimes too. I am looking the person straight in the eye, and at some point, I stop being present with them and start obsessing over something. I heard an amazing piece of wisdom from a woman yesterday. She stressed the importance of grounding herself. When her mind…