For some reason, the idea of learning to love and affirm myself is unappealing. It seems empty and un-fulfilling, but I think that may be due to a lack of understanding. As I have been struggling with this, I got this devotion a few days ago:
“For most of us, addiction was full of doubt. We stopped believing in ourselves. Our thoughts had turned to “stinkin’ thinkin’. ” We didn’t believe in much of anything. We didn’t take risks. We always looked for the easier, softer way. In recovery, we start to believe again. We believe in the program. We believe in a Higher Power. We believe in people. And, over time, we believe in ourselves again. We become better at taking risks. We are able to stay sober because we believe, because we take risks. As we stay sober, we can face almost anything – with the help of others.” From Keep it Simple
A friend suggested to me that the potential I see in myself has historically come from others’ affirmation. The universe wants to remove that, and teach me to accept love from MYSELF and be satisfied with that.
How do I become satisfied in that alone?